When You Feel Lost as a Multi Passionate or stuck in Ambivalence

This post is for you who feel lost. Whether you’re a multi-passionate creative struggling to choose the “right idea” for your business, career or calling, or someone who feels pulled in different directions, unsure which path to prioritize or even where to begin.

It may not look so dramatic from the outside. But it can feel intense on the inside.
I know that feeling intimately. I’ve been the queen of confusion, jumping between a thousand ideas as a freelancer, wasting months not honoring the truth of what I really wanted.

In this post, I’ll share what helped me get out of that fog.
How I moved from stuck and scattered to clear and aligned.
And how you can do the same.

You probably recognize the pattern. You begin projects, but can’t finish them. You get excited about an idea, only to start doubting it a few days later. You know that if you could just focus, if you could pour your energy into one thing, you could build something successful. But your focus keeps shifting, and your certainty keeps dissolving.

Sometimes it’s because new interests emerge. Sometimes it’s because you’re trying to combine multiple passions but don’t see how. Sometimes it’s simply because nothing feels completely right, and everything feels half true.

What If You’re Not Actually Confused?

Several people I’ve worked with, feel this same sense of inner conflict. They're torn between paths, ideas, or roles.

Some directions feel logical but lifeless.

Others feel inspiring but unclear or risky.

Some feel like a compromise.

Others feel too unrealistic.

And some feel like a perfect fit in one second, until the next day, when something inside quietly says: “This isn’t who I am.”

My own time in the fog of confusion

I felt this way after I made the big decision not to return to my steady career in media, tech, and marketing, but to work on my own as a freelancer or solopreneur. What I knew at the time, and where I saw potential, was in generative AI, automation, digital content creation, and marketing.

I played around with so many ideas I’ve probably forgotten a few: media-monitoring newsletters, social media marketing, corporate copywriting, customer success services, music production - you name it. And I worked with several of them. But I constantly felt like someone who just couldn’t commit to one direction.

The truth was: the things I actually cared about felt too far away.
I loved meditation, spirituality, neuroscience, psychology, personal growth, and creating visuals and sound. I’d quietly wanted to get into coaching for years. But I couldn’t allow myself to go there. Who was I to help people with their lives?

Eventually, I hit a breaking point.
I quit the few contracts I had - except one to keep income flowing, and said:
Screw it. I love music. I love meditation. That’s what I’m doing.

So after a while, I started creating meditation music.

I knew it wasn’t the final destination, but it was a beginning.
That beginning led me to become a certified meditation teacher. And from there, becoming a certified coach didn’t feel so far away, so I did that too.

Along the way, I discovered tarot, studied it, and fell in love with it.

At first, I had no idea how to combine any of these interests.
Honestly, I still don’t have a fixed formula.
But it works. It all fits together in a way that’s mine. And now, I’ve had the privilege of guiding dozens of people toward clarity and direction through my coaching, meditations, and tarot readings—and reaching thousands more through the music and soundscapes I create.

My point and message to you through this is: I could never plan any of this. Not the meditation music, not the tarot, not how I started coaching. They only unfolded as a result of no longer compromising, no longer trying to be interested in something I did not really care about, and by finally being honest. That did not mean, I threw away everything else. I still had to work on stuff I didn’t find super exciting, and I still do. But could let go of the ambivalence, and devote my ambitions, my planning, my creative energy and my intent to follow what I honestly wanted to do. And that was such a relief.

I wish I could sit across from you and have this conversation face-to-face, to make sure you really receive this message.

You are not as confused as you think.
And clarity doesn’t begin with answers or analyzing or even brainstorming.
It begins with honesty.

You may not have the full vision yet.
But I promise you already know something.

You know what you’re drawn to.
You know what gives you energy.
You know how you want your days to feel.
You remember what mattered to you before it all got so noisy.

That’s the beginning. That’s the clarity.

It doesn’t matter if you feel torn between singing and gardening, or if you’ve spent ten years chasing a degree that no longer feels right. The background doesn’t change the fact that some part of you already knows where your interests, passion, engagement, curiosity, inspiration and joy is truly found.

Start there.

You Don’t Have to Choose Just One Thing

If you’re multi-passionate, let that be a strength, not a burden.

You don’t need to find a perfect job title.
You don’t need to compress your whole being into one business idea.
You can combine your passions.
Or split them.
Or let them evolve.

Create your own role. Invent your own title.
Find the common thread in your values, your energy, your unique lens by following your path with honesty, discovering it as you go.

You don’t need to fit into anyone else’s structure. The world has changed.
We’re not in the industrial age. We’re in the creative, digital economy.
If people can make money hugging trees (and yes, they do!), you can find a way to build something honest from the things you care about.

Clarity Doesn’t Come From Solving

You won’t find your way by treating life like a math equation.

Clarity doesn’t come from perfect planning. It doesn’t come from waiting for the “right idea.” And it certainly doesn’t come from suppressing what you already know to be true.

It comes from honesty.
From setting the intention.
From beginning before you feel fully ready. From experimenting.

Want Support?

🎧 Listen to the full podcast episode on feeling lost and how to move forward
→ Thea Transformation Podcast

💬 Book a free focus session a gentle, no-pressure space to talk through where you are and what’s calling you next
→ theaborch.com/coaching

You are not confused. You are simply at the beginning of transformation.
Start with what you know.
That’s always enough if you allow it be without getting in the way of life.